Another chapter of my life has been finished. It's a very long chapter indeed, very full of laughter, tears, confusion, anger, and some new feelings I haven't yet to discover.

Yesterday, I finally finished my job as one of the people who's supposed to make everyone smarter. I don't know whether that has been achieved or not, but there are a lot of things that have been happening to me and I don't wanna say the cliche that I become a whole new different person after I went through this journey. Because I'm not, I'm still me. What happened was I get to finally know a lot more about myself, that's probably what happened with a lot of people when they finished some job, they learn to cope with themselves, with their demons. And along the way I found so many new demons that I thought wasn't in me.

I wanted to list them one by one, but I feel like this isn't the place for it, what if-- someone I don't know, someone i knew who were typing my name in the google search wondering why in the world i don't have a social media in this century being an IT student add to that and then found this little blog, then they read this. Would you still wanna be my friend if I told you my newly found demons inside myself? That sounds really creepy to be honest, it's not exactly demons that you see in the exorcism or some weird horror movies I will never watch. It's just a metaphor for some shit I don't like about myself, some shit I wanted to change, or get better out at. Ah, okay then I'm just gonna list them some place else. Here I wanted to write words that are-- umm not exactly sugarcoated, but I maybe add some stevia here and there. So here comes nothing.

Many months ago, I always envied the way my friends always travel in packs, how they got each other back, studying together, exploring new places, and they know something I did't know. So that was one of the reason I joined this organization. The screening process was shit horse, i mean it wasn't exactly a shit horse, i just felt like I could've done better. and plus i joined another organization